Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

Okay, this is bootleg post. So what? 10 Minutes a Day to Fresh Start By Carole Anderson Jan 27 2006 While we've reached the point in 2006 when many a new year's resolution has been broken, there is still something fascinating about starting a new year. The idea of a new year gets us all reflecting on the old one and what we want different in the months ahead. It gives the idea of freshness and the opportunity to change what isn't working, and makes us determine to try harder this time around. While the idea of a fresh start is nice, none of us really get a completely new start. A new start is actually difficult, for even if we changed our identity and moved to a different place, we would still take ourselves with us. Therein lies the catch. As the saying goes, "Wherever you go, there you are." More often than not, it is ourselves that mess us up. The human psyche can only adjust to so much change before it is overwhelmed. So while the idea of a comp...

1. are you content with your life? Not in this moment but I am working in it. It also depends on the day. There are days when I am quite content with my place in life. 2. if not, what would make you content? Oh my...where do I begin? 3. if so, what makes you content with it? N/A 4. what do you like most about yourself? My eyes, lips, hair and resolve. 5. what do you wish you could change about yourself? My body image and my ability to stay the course. 6. what irritates you most about other people? So many things but mostly just unnecessary rudeness. 7. what state do you live in? if not in the u.s., where in the world you at? New York State. 8. what do you look for in the mate who would be most compatible for you? A great sense of humor. A good listener who is understanding. A creative type-- someone who knows what they want out of life and goes after it.* 9. do you enjoy giving oral sex? Depends. 10. if so, why? I...

Yeah.. Doo-doo-doo, mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm-mmm.. Doo-doo-d-doo, diggy-doo YO.. I never knew a luh, luh-luh, a love like this Gotta be somethin for me to write this Queen, I ain't seen you in a minute Wrote this letter, and finally decide to send it Signed sealed delivered for us to grow together Love has no limit, let's spend it slow forever I know your heart is weathered by what studs did to you I ain't gon' assault em cause I probably did it too Because of you, feelings I handle with care Some niggaz recognize the light but they can't handle the glare You know I ain't the type to walk around with matchin shirts If relationship is effort I will match your work I wanna be the one to make you happiest, it hurts you the most They say the end is near, it's important that we close.. .. to the most, high Regardless of what happen on him let's rely There are times.. when you'll need someone.. I will be by your side.. There is a light, that shines, special for you...

I t's been a while since I took one. I'm not gone for good but just taking a little breather to regroup...again.

1 . What time did you get up this morning? 10:30. 2. Diamonds or pearls? Both!!! 3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Memoirs of a Geisha. 4. What is your favorite TV show? A clear tie between Lost and Everybody Hates Chris . 5. What did you have for breakfast? Just started on a breakfast kick! Cereal and coffee. 6. What is your middle name? OOOOO, if I tell you.... 7. What is your favorite cuisine? No clear favorite but a tie between Mexican, Chinese and Soul Food. 8. What foods do you dislike? Beets! 9. Your favorite Potato chip? Doritos but right now Terra Chips . 10. Your favorite CD at the moment? Unpredictable , I guess? 11. What kind of car do you drive? A subway car. Last rented car was a Dodge Stratus. 12. Characteristics do you despise? Insensitivity, rudeness, and selfishness. 13 . Are you superstitious? I'd say so. 14. Favorite item of clothing? Jeans. 15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? This is a grea...

>>> Listen Yeah yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah yeah yeah Everyday I'm trying to get to know ya But more and more you're changing up your act Everyday I look for ways to bring us closer But more and more you appear to be drawing back And lately when We're making love its getting weaker My heart don't feeling it and feeling is everything And I'm feeling like maybe you just don't feel it And I don't know how to play it In the past, didn't know how to say it But I... [CHORUS] I held my tongue too long I can't do it no more (I just can't do it babe) See how can a man be so cold To a woman that loves him most (I don't get it at all) (But if you wanna go) There's the door (I can't hold ya) Boy you're grown (You must got me confused) Ooooooo (I treat myself way too good) And a love that tears you down ain't really love Everyday I'm getting up and making breakfast And more and more you're walking in without a word And everyd...

I have a reunion coming up...I won't say which one but my contemporaries know which one it is. I'm signed up with Classmates.com and Reunion.com to get info. about the upcoming reunion. I received an email from a former classmate who was in my French class in high school and we also took some classes together in college. Although we weren't actually friends in high school, in college we became tight. She was always different from everyone else and basically was a loner throughout high school. Her issue was that she was a know-it-all. She was a smart girl and could be very outspoken on topics that most people shirk from. She was never popular and frankly she didn't care that most people didn't want to get to know her better. On the other hand, she had a brother who was basically a heart throb in the school. He was the exact opposite of her, handsome and popular. Most people didn't even know that they were related. Her dad was a city bus driver and people also...

M y friend and I went to Ta.rget in Brooklyn after a disappointing afternoon exploring the "bargains" at the Burli.ngton Coa.t Fa.ctory Annual sale at MSG . I was in a talkative mood, so I blabbered on and on in the housewares section about their selection compared to other discount stores. We reached the second to last aisle and there are three friends standing in it. All three women stopped what they were doing to turned and face us. I was like...OMG, why are they all up in my mouth? I couldn't believe that they could be so blatently nosey. I whispered to my friend, 'was I talking that loud'? Then, a few minutes later I started talking about my aunt's new house and the problem she was having in her foyer with dirt being tracked in the house. I'm telling my friend what I suggested to my aunt to solve the problem when this random guy stops me mid-sentence to tell me that what I was telling my friend was a good idea and that he'd never heard it befor...

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O ne awesome thing about keeping a journal is the fact that a person can always go back and reflect on her growth. I like to go back to my old posts and see what my mindset was at that time. Have I made any progress or have I stagnated? On my old blog, I posted this list that I'd found on someone else's blog. Since about a year has past* I needed a reminder. I notice that most of the time I do most of these. I struck through the ones I that I find myself doing often and left the one's blank of what I will continue to work towards. Still lots of room to grow. 1. Count your blessings. 2. Strive for progress, not perfection. 3. At least once a day, sit and do nothing. Got this one cover! 4. Celebrate all birthdays, no matter how old you get. 5. Don't forget to say, "Thank you." The magic words! 6. Diminish your wants instead of increasing your needs. 7. Cry when you feel like it. 8. Keep good company. 9. Look into the eyes of the one you love when you are talki...

A fter years of yearning wanting longing we have closed the gap. we have tasted explored confirmed and indeed it is good. (c)2006

>>> Listen [Beyonce] It had been many years since I've been in love With a real man I had given up on love I didn't think a good man existed in this world I was tired, of searching Because of relationships I've dealt with in the past Couldn't fathom bein another mess When I least expected it, I found you And because of you, I know how it feels to be [Chorus A] Love, and when I look into your eyes I see Love, pillow talking at night I can hear Love, ooh, the next mornin' make Love, I'm so in love [Chorus B] For you I live and love again Open the path to happiness For you I learn to smile again I thank God for you For you I live and love again I trust you, just guide and take my hand For you I learn to smile again I love you, I love you, I love you [Kelly] Now it's been three years since we've been in love And you keep doin' things to show your proud of Thirty beauties in the room only me you see The confidence you give, lives in me I vow...

"Black Girl Pain" (feat. Jean Grae) [Talib Kweli] I do it for the people, I do it for the love I do it for the poet, I do it for the thug This is for victory, and this is for the slaughter I do it for my mother, I do it for my daughter Promise I'll always love ya, I love to kiss and hug ya You and your brother should be lookin out for one another I'm so blessed, man, y'all the reason I got up Somebody put his hands on you I'm gettin locked up I'm not playin, that's the prayer I'm sayin for Diani And if I die then she'll be protected by Amani That's her bigger brother and I love the way he love her She a girly-girl, she love to imitate her mother But she a Gemini, so stay on her friendly side She'll put that look on you, it's like somebody' friend just died My pretty black princess smell sweet like that incense That you buy at the bookstore supporting black business Teach her what black is; the fact is her parents are thorough Sh...

Success He has achieved success who has lived well, laughed often, and loved much; who has enjoyed the trust of pure women, the respect of intelligent men and the love of little children; who has filled his niche and accomplished his task; who has left the world better than he found it whether by an improved poppy, a perfect poem or a rescued soul; who has never lacked appreciation of Earth's beauty or failed to express it; who has always looked for the best in others and given them the best he had; whose life was an inspiration; whose memory a benediction. --1904 Bessie Anderson Stanley A version of the above poem was given to me which I framed and kept near for those times when I questioned myself. Recently, I visited with family members who caused me to question what path I would have followed if it hadn't been for those angels who kept guiding me back onto the path of purpose? Honestly, I have been blessed to have those angels in my life. Some were blood relatives and ...

T o feel this way when he is holding me gently in his arms and indulging in his kisses even when I am deep in my dreams.

What a New Years treat! Disclaimer: Unfortunately not my new years treat but at least I got to ride in it.

C ontinuing my reign as the queen of lists, I will compose a shortened version of random thoughts that are currently running rampant through my head. I am having a pretty day. I woke up, looked in the mirror and actually felt pretty. It might have to do with being alfresco or it could be my new beauty routine. I consulted with my good friends at Ori.gins and Ki.ehl's and they recommended a couple of products. In desperation I was swayed to try them. Ori.gins was nice enough to give me samples of three different products. I haven't tried the others but this one is great. I wound up with another fairly helpful sales associate at the Kie.hl's counter in S.aks . This product was recommended and I am in love with it. I am actually surprised that I am in functional condition today after a banger of a night. I had a glass of wine with dinner, two cocktails later in the evening and then went out and had two more cocktails. That's three, three, three liquors in...

(x) smoked a cigarette ( ) crashed a friend's car ( ) stolen a car (x) been in love (x) been dumped ( ) shoplifted (x) been fired ( ) been in a fist fight (x) snuck out of your parent's house (x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back (x) gone on a blind date ( ) seen a ghost (x) lied to someone who didn't matter anyway (x) skipped school (x) seen someone die ( ) been to Canada (x) been to Mexico (x) been on a plane ( ) purposely set a part of yourself on fire (x) eaten sushi ( ) been skiing (x) met someone from the internet (x) been at a concert (x)Taken painkillers (x) love someone or miss someone right now (x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by (x) made a snow angel (x) had a tea party (x) wanted to be famous (x) flown a kite (x) built a sand castle (x) gone puddle jumping ( ) been scuba diving (x) played dress up (x) jumped into a pile of leaves (x) gone sledding (x) found or won a lot of money (x) cheated while playing a game. (x) been lon...

I guess I will start the new year out with a chain email. It's a new year and time to clean house. I may elaborate on why I posted these later: Let it go for 2005.. By T. D. Jakes >> >> There are people who can walk away from you. >> And hear me when I tell you this! When people can walk away from >> you: let them walk. I don't want you to try to talk another person >> into staying with you, loving you, calling you, Caring about you, >> coming to see you, staying attached to you. >> I mean hang up the phone. >> When people can walk away from you let them walk. Your destiny >> is never tied to anybody that left. The Bible said that, they came out >> from us that it might be made manifest that they were not for us. For >> had they been of us, no doubt they would have continued with us. [1 >> John 2:19] >> People leave you because they are not joined to you. And if ...