Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

My weekend was a wash. It had been raining for days and my mind and body shut down and refused to function. I pretty much came home from work on Friday and that was all she wrote. I needed to get work done this weekend but my mind just wasn't focused enough to do it. So when Monday rolled around I decided to take a day off. I need to have these days to regroup sometimes.  I managed to get more done before noon than I have all week. I paid rent, mailed a form to my student loan lender, washed my clothes and bedding, cleaned the cat box, cleaned the oven (it is self-cleaning) flipped my mattress, followed up on getting licensed out of state, and handled a few random items. All before noon. Not to mention I am showered and dressed! Go me! I need to do some reading for work, plan out the rest of my week, and go through papers to find my referral for dental work. I will need to get extractions of my remaining wisdom teeth and a root canal on a tooth that a stupid dentist in New York t...

Listening to Ledisi's "Going through Changes" as I type this Sunday afternoon. I'm on vacation and I swear it is the only time I ever feel like I am a real person. Going through the motions day by day wears on me. I get into these patterns and habits that are are smothering me. It's not until I stop and take a look at myself that I realize how much I tend to neglect myself for the sake of my job. It's not healthy. It's not emotionally or physically healthy. I spend my vacations regrouping only to fall back into those patterns. I'll eat better, rediscover my passions, get lots of sleep only to fall back into the same cycle. When it seems that I am able to stay the course then a wrench always get thrown into the mix. I need to start having contingency plans. Number one is restoring my health and well-being. Protecting myself emotionally from adult bullies is also high on the list. I didn't appreciate the fact that I am less than week from going on v...

....you know the rest. Hard to believe I haven't posted in 9 months. Crazy! Some of you have abandoned the world of cyber-voyeurism for other time consumers. I haven't had the time to spend online for "personal pleasure" as much as I use to. A lot has changed in my life and if I get more time to spend online I may reveal some of the details. Otherwise, I'll keep my little piece of real estate in cyberspace occupied for the time being. It wouldn't be a proper blog with a B&M session. I started a new job back in August. Salary, benefits and the like were supposed to be taken care of no later than September...right??? Wrong!!! Here it is January and I'm still not getting paid my proper salary, my benefits kicked in on December 1st but the HR person simply "forgot" to mail me my packet. Mind you, they also forgot to sign me up back when I started. WTF??? And then they wonder why people don't want to work in their district. Eff ups. I'm re...