The Warmest December
This month the weather was been so warm. No scarves, gloves, or winter coats thus far. Yet, my anxiety is ramping up. I had another bout of anxiety this morning. I feel like everything is off-kilter aw work and I don't know how to regain control. I have mentally given up. At the end of each day I am ready to cry and feel like a failure. I know this is by design because despite my problems at my last two jobs I was a leader in my field and now I am being made to feel as if I am a loser. And it is taking a toll on me physically and mentally. I did nothing all weekend except stress eat and the only time I feel at peace is when I am sleeping. Otherwise my mind feels full and even though my body isn't exhausted my mind is weary. I was suffering from pains in my abdomen and thought I might have to have surgery. I have changed my diet to exclude most land animals. If I eat it I am limiting it to once a week or so. It hasn't really helped so far but I am going to try to stick to it...