Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

I am in a good place emotionally. I feel like my strength has been restored and there is a bubble of protection around me. There is no sign of anxiety and I am able to face the world with a sense of peace. I want to stay this way. I want to let go of all that doesn't serve me in 2016. Not allow myself to stress out about things that are out of my control. I have learned that God continues to have my back and I am so blessed. Help me remember that I am protected and there is nothing that can destroy a child of the King. I have earned my crown. Thank you, God!

I am struggling to survive in a world that seems to want to see me down. I thought I was in a good place then suddenly the rug was pulled out from under me. I suddenly went from being amazing and blessed to being someone who doesn't matter. And it makes it more difficult because I am alone. I miss my family. I feel isolated from everyone. I don't have a network. I used to be able to bump into someone on the streets in NY and my spirit would be renewed but not here. I like living in this area. In this complex and apartment even but it doesn't feed my spirit. I don't have the human contact that I need. The human interaction that I need so I don't implode. Which I actually did on Friday. I have been holding so much in and building so much up and it was taking a toll on me in every way. I came home and decided that I am going to quit my job. I called my godmother and spilled my heart out to her about how I was feeling. I felt that it was futile. Instead of having a ...

My weekend was a wash. It had been raining for days and my mind and body shut down and refused to function. I pretty much came home from work on Friday and that was all she wrote. I needed to get work done this weekend but my mind just wasn't focused enough to do it. So when Monday rolled around I decided to take a day off. I need to have these days to regroup sometimes.  I managed to get more done before noon than I have all week. I paid rent, mailed a form to my student loan lender, washed my clothes and bedding, cleaned the cat box, cleaned the oven (it is self-cleaning) flipped my mattress, followed up on getting licensed out of state, and handled a few random items. All before noon. Not to mention I am showered and dressed! Go me! I need to do some reading for work, plan out the rest of my week, and go through papers to find my referral for dental work. I will need to get extractions of my remaining wisdom teeth and a root canal on a tooth that a stupid dentist in New York t...

I have decided that I am going to live my life in abundance. Now, that doesn't mean I will be careless but I will not live in fear of lack. I just went through my wallet and discovered I still have the full rebate from my phone on a debit card. I think I was saving it for a rainy day. However it expires in September so I had better use it before I lose it. I am also finally going to start generating incoming from my writing. I am hoping to use those funds to offset my initial investment and to stash away into a rainy day fund.