Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

So, as I suspected I will be leaving my job this year unless something happens. It is bittersweet and I knew I was putting that energy into the Universe every time I said I wanted more. I have waves of indifference and sadness. I know that life has amazing experiences waiting for me on the other side. I had a good run, but now I need to spread my wings. I have been having these very vivid dreams recently. I dreamed about a sunset that was brilliant it lit up a tree like it was on fire. Today, I took a nap and dreamed about home. I dreamed that I was back in the house I grew up in. Back on the street I grew up on. It had changed but it was still home. I woke up crying for my mother. Missing my mother so much. Ideally I will be able to live in California again and travel. Right now I am researching what I am doing next. I might stay in this area for another year. I might to to Philly. Or, I might even consider somewhere in the Southwest like New Mexico. I have everything lo...

It usually takes a big shake up to shake off the funky coat of negativity that has a way of wrapping around you during a visit to the valley. A valley is that low place that we descend into when life has bigger plans for us. It is the place that prepares us for a next chapter. But if we stay in that place too long we start to rot and stink - figuratively and sometimes literally. And this is where we find ourselves. In the sunken place. But, we don't have to stay there. We can live our life in a way that inspires us. That's what I did this past weekend. I had a trip booked to New Mexico and it was just what I needed. I soaked and steamed out all of my tension and toxins. I remembered who I was. I reconnected with nature. I realized that I am not the issue...it is where I am. As soon as I got back to D.C. the negativity crept back in. I have the option to not embrace it. I am going to revel in this good feeling for as long as I can. I thank God for creating such beautiful places ...