Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

I will be taking my first "real" trip in years this weekend. I haven't been on an airplane since I left Cali. How many years has that been?  This trip will be to see relatives. My mom's eldest sister is in her 80s. Since I don't get down there often and she doesn't travel who knows when I will see her again? It will be weird because I haven't seen her since either my mom or my aunt died. It has been a very long time. I am hoping that my cousin isn't around. He molested me when I was little and that could be quite awkward and resurface all kinds of stuff in me. We are also going to visit two gravesites: Where my aunt, grandma, and greats are buried in the family plot and where my mom and uncle are buried in the V.A. cemetery. I have never visited either of their gravesites so I don't know how I will react. We are also going to try to visit my great grandma's house. She was a sharecropper so we have to get permission to go on the property. ...

Hello Summer! So glad to see you. I am officially on vacation! Yes! A lot has happened in the past few weeks. I had a lovely weekend and I an preparing to go away to visit relatives soon. Trying to make a good life for myself. God has truly been good to me. Well, just thought I would pop my head in for a minute. Off to do a little blogger elsewhere on the internet.

...and boy am I ready for the freedom that summer offers. I don't look forward to excessive heat and humidity, but in all fairness this spring has been a true spring despite the harsh winter we had. Hoping the humidity remains at bay. The heat in and of itself is tolerable. I wish I could work with people who are easy to work with. This chick I work with is just the worst drama queen I have ever encountered. It is as if she has decided that her life will be miserable and she will do everything in her power to stay miserable. I know that a lot of what I see in her is a reflection of me, but I hope it is the old me and not who I have evolved into over years of self-sabotaging myself. And it seems the more successful I (or anyone except her friends) are at reaching goals, the more sour she becomes. She complains about every.thing. Oh boy is she vindictive! Yet, her life is stagnant. And people at work indulge her. If I wasn't so busy focusing on my own success, then it would b...