Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

Chill. As in it is hella' chilly outside. Like downright freezing cold. But alas I have volunteered to represent my job at a fair that is happening today. I have to travel all the way to the other side of town to do it. When I signed up it didn't occur to me that the location had changed since last year. Last year I was able to just hop on Metro and be there. This year it is much farther away.  I only committed to an hour so I will go then leave and take care of errands before heading home to finish this friction' annoying 6 week project that I have to do for work. They are due on Monday. I worked late 3 nights this week...two after work meetings back to back and an event after work.  I know some people work like this all the time but I also have my regular job that I do all day with a morning that is intensive and on certain days no break at all in my day to even use the bathroom. Then my boss had to nerve to call a special meeting on Friday to address a question I a...

Well, I spent yesterday clearing out my closet and I have two bags of clothes to donate to the big dumpster thingy in front of my job, another pile that I would like to donate to a place that helps woman who need work attire and because I have been switching out my clothes seasonally I don't have a lot of clothes to throw away! Yay! My closet is bare so I ordered more clothes online for winter. In spring and summer I will need to replenish my wardrobe again. I don't want to be bogged down with things like clothes and papers which I seem to keep around for way too long. I have a plastic tub full of clothes that I am keeping for sentimental reasons. Eventually I will have to part way with them as well. The intention was to tackle these boxes that never got unpacked, but I might need to do a box a day next week. I will clean out my drawers and probably donate more tee shirts (how do they accumulate so fast?) and my coat closet that has a bunch of shoes that I never wear. E...

For some reason I feel stuck today. I suddenly felt a wave of sadness as I thought about the direction that my career is heading in. Part of the reason that I want to do well this year is so that I can move on from what I am currently doing for a living. It is getting to be too much and I am quickly losing my passion for what used to bring my joy and fulfillment. I need to find opportunities that afford me the same or similar salary but will allow me to separate my personal life from my work life in a way that is healthy. I get some much pleasure from indulging in my passion projects. Sadly I will have to sacrifice my lifestyle for more balance. I just want to be able live comfortably and be happy.

I am feeling really good about today despite the fact that it is chilly. I see that the sun has emerged. The newscast is saying that it is actually warmer today than it was yesterday. Since I rested all day yesterday I wouldn't know. I will be going out to run errands and probably get something to eat. I feel like a trip to Trader Joe's is in order even thought next week is pretty much a 3 day work week. We work tomorrow but we are working from noon to 7 PM and will be in conferences all day. I haven't decided yet how I am spending my morning. I am sure sleeping in will be part of the plan though since that is one of my favorite things to do. I don't even have the alarm set to go off until Wednesday. I would typically watch CBS Sunday Morning then start my day but lately it hasn't been good. They must have changed producers because it was good every week for a long stretch and I would try to catch missed episodes online. I think after I run my errands I wil...

This week was one of those weeks where I worked on overdrive until I run out of gas. Yet I don't know I have run out until I come to a  complete stop. That is what happened today when my plans were to get up and take care of errands. My body on the other hand said Hell No! I have yet to get up today. I have run around all week, working late, writing reports, in meetings, and doing my typical day to day grind. I did receive some good news. My second (out of five) evaluations was rated highly. The first one which was 3.44 out of 4.00 (Note: I just looked up the new score and it was also a 3.44.  also noticed that my next one will be an informal so I only have two more for the year! Whoot!). That is encouraging because after just barely getting an overall score of 3.06 last year I felt like all of my hard work was in vain. I stayed until 7:45 - a full 12 hours - on Thursday entering my reports. I was back at work 12 hours later and ran from the time I arrived until I left at dusk...

I love the 21 day meditation series hosted by Oprah and Deepak. The daily meditations force me to slow down and reflect in the morning before I start my day. If I miss it during the day then I will listen at night before bed. This new series is on desire and I like it a lot. I haven't missed a day so far. Last time I fell behind and missed several meditations. Today's message really hit home. The centering thought is I deserve complete fulfillment. I thought about how this time last year I was reveling in my new life. I realized that I had manifested a new life by subconsciously saying the same mantra to myself. I was constantly saying that I deserved more than what I had. I think I became laxed once I received my blessing. Yes I praised God every day for delivering me from my old life. Yes, I still thank God regularly for moving me to a place where I am safer and more comfortable than before. However, my work situation has been precarious and perhaps that is the area th...

It is cold and blustery outside today. I am spending the day indoors with the heat on finally taking care of long overdue chores in my apartment. I feel good about the week ahead. The "post" from my boss actually looks likes she is providing us time to do what needs to be done this week so maybe there is hope that I can finally get caught up! She has been extending herself to what she calls "open dialogue forums" and I guess she is hearing the same feedback from everyone. Maybe she is finally listening to others and maybe we will finally have some peace in our lives - at least until the end of year since I know she will get wound up again at the beginning of the new year. One can only hope to have some breathing room. I don't know if it is the extra hour or just the fact that I am allowing myself to not overextend myself but I am feeling quite productive today. I am headachy, but perhaps it is the weather. I also went out yesterday underdressed. I really did...

Time change. Not sure how I feel about this. Glad it is later than usual. I have just barely been getting to work on time within the last month or so probably because it is still very dark when I wake up. It has been a while since I started my day at 5:45. I am hoping that I adjust well to the time change and can manage to get to work between 7 and 7:30 again instead of leaving the house around 7:30-7:45.  I have been so tired lately. Thursday I was supposed to go back to work and wound up crashing out when I got home instead. Friday I was supposed to turn something in and couldn't finish so I went for a massage and crashed out. Yesterday the weather was so cold, damp, and dreary until...you guessed it...I just lazed around. Hoping to be more productive day. I have so much to do and I need to get ready for my move at the end of the month. Still excited about having more space and not going to stress about paying more rent. I will be fine. I am always fine. I just need to adjust a...