Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

There is a shift in the universe. Things are falling into alignment. I think. I hope. Sometimes you have trust that it will all work out for the good.

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I just needed to document this day as one where I world become less bright because of the loss of a musical icon. Prince is gone. I wasn't ready. I wasn't ready. And there is no one to replace him. When Michael Jackson died we said, well at least we still have Prince. And now we don't. This may sound weird, but I told y'all I am an empath, I felt the atmosphere shift around the time he transitioned. I felt really unsettled and I couldn't figure out why I was irritated and uncomfortable. My energy was also extremely low. It was also an overcast day until around noon when the sun broke through the clouds and I started to feel a bit better. Call it what you want, but I believe I also felt the shift in energy when my grandmother and mother died. I probably felt it other times as well but didn't recognize it for what it was. I didn't find out that Prince had died until after work. I walked around telling people I felt "off" and out of sorts, yet no one ...

Note, this is a stream of consciousness...I just wrote straight from my head without self-editing.  I live in a place where people seem to be obsessed with race. I guess because it is closer to the south but blacks and white are openly racist toward each other. I find it off-putting because I have lived primarily in places where there was some racism but it wasn't the focus of every single thing. As a matter of fact classism was probably a bigger issue than racism. It got me thinking about the differences between being race conscious and race obsessed. I consider myself race conscious. I am aware of other races and sensitive to stereotypes and micro aggressions, but I am not obsessed with race and color. Why does this matter?  Because a woman worked with me the other day and mentioned race and colorism.  I work in a diverse environment, yet the blacks are so race obsessed that have decided to pit against the whites. Now, I took black studies classes during most of und...

I saw this list and it is right in line with some observations I have noticed. Ever since I have worked in this field I have noticed how widespread bullying is...mean girls type of bullying. Grown women (mostly) who act like middle school pre-teens. This article is a prime example of some of the behaviors that I see: http://hellobeautiful.com/2016/03/28/bullying-at-work/

I took a mental health day. Actually my stomach was also really upset but I think they are connected. In any event I stayed home an extra day and surprisingly slept a lot. I had plans to get all of these tasks completed and none of it happened. I guess it is that time of year where I start to take stock of my life. I am ready to walk away and pursue a career that makes me happy and keeps me going. I want to transition out of this career because I am tired of everything. I tried. I really did try. I've moved to different places, tried different practices, tried to change my mind-set. Nothing works. So, I just need to accept defeat and move on because I have worked hard and I deserve to feel happy and satisfied with the work that I do. I just realized that I am off on Friday anyway and I probably wouldn't have used a sick day but I needed to not be in that environment today. When I left on Friday I was in a irritable state and I never really shook it. I wonder if I can bear...

I just realized that lunch is probably my most important meal of the day. This is because I am not a breakfast person. Never have been. I don't like to eat when I have first woken up. There are times when I wake up starving, but those times are rare. Often the only time I will eat breakfast is if I am on vacation. In any event, I get hungry if I miss my lunch. Even if lunch isn't until 2 or 3 if I completely miss my lunch I am irritable and short tempered for the rest of the day until I can eat. I guess it makes sense since my blood sugar level is probably beyond E at that point. For the people who skip lunch every day...more power to you. As for me, I need to eat something to keep my energy up and take a few minutes to clear my head in the middle of the day.

I am itching to travel so badly! I have been pricing vacations to warm, tropical islands but so far I haven't found anything that fits my budget. I want to take my first grown up vacation and be like Stella getting my groove back. I really need to get my groove back! I have been trying to figure out how I am going to transition out of my current career. I am really have had enough at this point. I know I have said it before and then moved somewhere else or changed to a different location, but the reality is that I am not in the right field for what it is that I need to get out working. I think what makes my passion fields so enticing to me is that sense of satisfaction upon completion. In my field we have to wait so long to see results and that is bothersome. I need to feel like I am making a difference as I am doing the work. And I need to see the end of tunnel. I thought about getting a license for fields like being a travel agent and real estate agent. I need to do somet...

My bosses boss is a dick. There I said it. I really don't like him or how he does business. To think that I admired him and was excited to be at one of his sites. He sucks! With that said, there is some sheet going down on my job and I am ready to leave - now! I will try to get through the next couple of months, but yeah, I am packing my stuff up now because this is not the right setting for me. People are shady, shifty, and sneaky. They think it's cute, but I don't do business like that so... God, if I could maintain my current lifestyle by writing I would do it in a heartbeat. I have been keeping my eyes peeled for opportunities. I might dip my toe out into the water. In the meantime, my resume is circulating as we speak and I am about to expand my reach shortly. I just had to get that off of my mind because he keep replaying. I went for a nice massage after work then had a late lunch at PF Changs. I came home because I was mentally exhausted. I know that I am OK an...

What makes strawberry lemonade so delicious? The fact that it is both tart and sweet. That is how my life feels right now. I feel so blessed for all that I have and that is sweet part about it. I am so disappointed in the work aspect of my life and that is the tart part. Action items/ingredients: What have I done? I have finally invested in my passion! After all of these years I have started taking my dreams seriously and just purchased new equipment so I can start creating my digital stories. I bought a mac not only because I find it to be the most reliable laptop on the market but also because of it's multimedia capabilities. While the Rebel was a nice camera it was quickly starting to become a bit outdated. It is large, heavy, and bulky which means that I have to make a special effort to remember to bring it with me. So, as time went on I found myself using it less often. Enter the sexy new Canon.  After researching the best vlogging cameras I found that vloggers th...