Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

Found beauty today I have been on vacation all week and it has gone by so quickly. I had a full list of things to do. I accomplished many but there are others that will need to carry over into the next break I get or just need to be handled whenever I can get to them. I honestly wouldn't mind one more week to finish everything, but on the other hand I can't stand the down time. It makes me realize who incredibly alone I am. I have time to think and feel.  The loneliness cloaks me and wraps around me until I can't breathe. I have been trying to decide if I am going to move or not. I have had a lot of problems where I am and I should move, but it is too soon so I might extend my lease for a few more months until I can get everything sorted out. I went for a long drive today. Well, the intention was to look for furniture because I haven't even furnished this place. Anyway, considering the fact that it is Easter and a Sunday everything had closed by the time I go out...

I intended to go to church this morning but nature called. I decided to go for a walk in the park instead. I really needed the exercise and I am proud that despite being very out of shape I walked to around (the Meer) and back. My feet hurt because I still haven't found the right shoes, that is about all that really hurts. No knee pains or foot pain that was happening last year. Hopefully I am on the road to recovery. I just need to do it consistently. Not going to church and going to the park made me think of an Emily Dickinson poem: SOME keep the Sabbath going to church; I keep it staying at home, With a bobolink for a chorister, And an orchard for a dome. Some keep the Sabbath in surplice; I just wear my wings, And instead of tolling the bell for church, Our little sexton sings. God preaches,—a noted clergyman,— And the sermon is never long; So instead of getting to heaven at last, I ’m going all along!