Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

As I have been purging my space I have reached a sense of peace deep down inside of me. It is amazing how "stuff" can weigh us down. Speaking of weight, I have been losing it. I also had a dental procedure which prevented me from eating, but I had already been on a journey to change my diet. I also know that I am stress eater and with the absence of stress my body has had a chance to reset and function "normally." I need to remember to stay grounded when stressful situations build. I would typically start to feel anxious around this time, but I am peaceful. I have been super productive. There have been days where I have just allowed myself to just be but I am determined to continue to purge my space - clear my energy. I have kept thing so long that they smell old and musty. I am getting rid of so much and the peace that it brings me is amazing. I have been going through old papers and realizing that my memory has failed me about some things. Crazy how our minds wi...

Woke up this morning with a sense of relief. I am sitting here drinking an amazing up of coffee while Miles Davis plays in the background. The weather is absolutely amazing and I will probably go from a walk in the park later this morning. I am still working on getting my life together, but sometimes you need to take a break. I asked for a break with paying my student loans - my second largest expense. I had to do it because I need to take a class to renew my certification and my loan payments had just increased. Something had to give. So I asked for some breathing room. I know that means that I am just making my loans even larger, but eventually I will be in a position to pay them off. I believe that to be true. In the time that I will have free of that monkey, I will use that money to pay off/down my credit cards and put me in a better position to get these loans paid off. That's the plan and I'm sticking to it. Now, back to Miles.

There will come a time in my life when my life will be neatly packaged up and tied up in a bow ready to present to the world. A time when all of the pain and memories of the past will be sweet as honey. A time when I will only remember the good parts and revel in the good times that I've experienced. I am rebuilding my life. The parts that were stolen from me while I was still a child. The parts that were violently ripped away from me as I tried to find my place in this world. There will come a time in my life when smiles will come easily and love will drip from my lips like the nectar from a ripe peach. When kindness will be the norm and not the exception. When my life will match my dreams. When each day will be a new adventure waiting to be experienced. There will come a time when the present will heal the past, fill in empty patches and assuage my soul. One day soon, there will come a time.