Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

I don't know what is going to happen in the coming months. Everything is up the air at this point. I am not stressed. I am not worried. I just want to make it long enough to get to Cuba. That is my goal at this point. I looked at an apartment this weekend and despite it being much cheaper than my current place I couldn't wrap my head around living there. I really do like my apartment and I am not ready to move yet. I also have been very lax about sending out my resume for a new job. I feel like the universe will figure it all out for me. I typically have a strong feeling one way or another about what I am going to do but I don't have that feeling so I am just letting go and letting it work out on its own. This weekend has been relaxing. I have been resting and writing. I went to the National Harbor with an old friend and it was interesting. The prior weekend I went to brunch with a new friend and I was irritated. I am come to the conclusion that I am a shitty friend. ...

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I had a beautiful dream last night that I was with someone I clicked with immediately. We were inseparable. I felt safe with him and was completely myself. I woke up feeling like I might be ready to date. Lately my eye has been wandering and I emotionally I've been more vulnerable. Anyway, all of that is to say that I am ready to meet new people, do new things, and enjoy my life to the fullest. I wish I had the type of lifestyle that would allow me to hop a plane to fly to NOLA for red beans and rice - on a whim. There are so many beautiful places in the world and I want to see as many of them as possible. Right now I am drawn to the Southwest. I can live cheaply which will allow me then travel more. I'm sorting some things out in my head.