Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

I still hurt. My heart aches with the remembrance of massive loss on that that fateful day 10 years ago. I have been avoiding the TV hype about the 10th anniversary, yet I still find my heart is heavy. I think about my former coworker who was at the tower that morning for a meeting. A helluva guy! Friendly, family oriented, hard working. Gone in the blink of an eye. We are not promised tomorrow. Let us cherish each second of each day just as John did. I will forever have warm memories of his smile and easy conversation. I could only hope to be remembered as fondly as John is remembered by those who were touched by his spirit.

 This is an old post I found in the draft folder that had never been posted. I guess because it was incomplete. I still like the song though . Just got through listening to Ledisi's "Someday." That song touches my spirit. Last night I missed my mom so bad. I am in the midst of another transition in my life (what's new) and I think I tend to revert...

I ain't gone lie, a sister is going through some challenges right now. If you are a regular reader then you already know that my mother has been gone from this earth for a number of years. She died in 1995. Yet, for some reason my mind keeps playing tricks on me. Every day for the past few weeks I have felt like I can just pick up the phone and call my mom. I don't know if it is because she is watching over me or if it is some other strange spiritual phenomenon going on in the universe. I miss my mom. Supastar and I are working on staying in touch. I was having a particularly bad day last week and texted him. Being ever practical he texted back "life is a continuous up and down ride." I'll say! While it wasn't the comfort I was looking for, it was a dose of reality. I really need for things to get better. I know there are lessons embedded in this long, drawn out series of bad days. I need to run the course, but I can't help to worry that bet...