Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

I have always been pegged as a rebel - a maverick. Stubborn, hard-headed...difficult. I prefer adjectives such as determined, independent, and tenacious. I know what I want and I am willing to put all of my time and effort into achieving it. This is why I have never given up on my dreams. I have come across obstacles and had to find some detours to get around them but those detours have always lead me back to what I really want in life. My desire in this life is to create and to create freely. I am most happy when I am living outside of the constraints that society has placed on me. I just watched a video of a girl who shaved her shoulder length hair off. She talked about how it is considered an act of rebellion against society. I find that I always cut my hair when I feel constrained. I've been thinking about growing my hair back, but I don't think I am ready yet. I think this act of having short hair is a spiritual act. When I am in a toxic environment that energy sticks to...

I'm out here trying to remember who I am. You see, when people try to kill your spirit you either lay down and die or you dig deep inside of yourself and fight for your life. They may have won the battle but the war is not lost. I wonder what people get out of trying to destroy you? I feel like Sofia from The Color Purple...all my life I've had to fight. And I have. There are been times where I have been exactly where I was meant to be and I was surrounded by love and light and then there have been times like this where I am shrouded in darkness and negativity. I have more critics than supporters. So, I have been investing my time in remembering who I am. What I love, what I am good at, where I feel most at peace. I already mentioned my trip to the desert. I have another amazing trip planned as well. For now, I have decided to not submit my resignation. I will look into transferring out if it is an option and doing something different all together. I just haven't been mot...

I have been loving myself. I have been tapping deep into my spirit to rediscover who I am at my core. I am under attack on my job and negativity is tossed at me from every direction. My spirit longs for peace. I am reminding myself that everything I am experiencing is all part of the process. God is guiding where I need to be. I know my own worth and value. I will not be destroyed. Oprah and Deepak's new meditation series starts tomorrow!  I booked a trip to a spa in New Mexico surrounded by  Navajos. Pueblos. I am in a good place and moving toward the goals I set 5 years ago.  Time for a new plan.  The universe tells me that no matter what happens I will be OK. 

Listen, your girl has been going through but I am finding my way back to alignment. I have more to say on it but right now I am in a really good place. I will update you soon. Stay tuned.

I am about to quit my job. I can't do this anymore. It is unbearable and I feel thousands of brain cells dying each second that I remain stagnant. I am being forced into submission and mediocrity and we all know that does not work for me - at all. On the positive side, I am being pushed into greatness. I am never allowed to get too comfortable. Like clockwork, about every 5 years my life pushes me to another place and different stage. I am desperate for creativity and inspiration. Cities like Detroit, Chicago, and Philly...mid-size but known for good culture are calling my name. I am in love with Philly and trying to figure out how I can make it my next stop. I have seen how people will commute from Philly to NYC daily. I'm game if the rent is worth it. Lord knows I do not want to actually live in NYC again, but I would work there for the $$$. I would love to make NYC money, pay Philly rents, and still be able to travel freely. Natually my current career wouldn't be an ...

I am not specific enough about what I want in life. I set a goal of having my credit cards paid off by the end of 2017. Well, as God is liable to do, HE has come through and provided a way for me to walk into 2018 with no credit card debt. However, I will not be debt free. So instead I should have asked that I be debt free in 2018. So now my new goal is to be debt free by the end of the year. I still have student loan debt and I have moved the current debt into a 2 year loan with lower interest payments, but I believe that God is going to provide a way to eliminate all debt by the end of this year. I will pay off my loan early and I will receive a blessing of grace with my student loan. Dream BIG!