Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle. 2. For each question, press the next button to get your next answer. 3. You must write that song name down no matter how outrageous it sounds! 4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the game as well as the person you got the note from IF SOMEONE SAYS, “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY? Ama Be Happy - ArchDuke WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY? If your girl were humble - Aliyah mix WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? PYT - Michael Jackson WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE? Butterfly WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO? Have Mercy on Me - Jengi Beats WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? What about it WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? Cold Outside WHAT IS 2+2? Spaceship Number 9 WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? Honey - Erykah Badu WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE? Good Morning - Lakey Inspired WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? Up 2 U - Jafunk and the Ninth Floor Funk Apt. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? Blue Eye Stone - Zuper WHAT DO YOU THINK WH...

I didn't do anything to prep for the week ahead. I don't get off for vacation until the 22nd so I have to work all of this week and half of next week. Yesterday I woke up feeling refreshed. I got up and left the house before noon to run errands. I literally spent 12 hours out of the house. I was sore since I hadn't had a massage in ages and I had been running around all day so I got a massage. If anything the massage the made me feel worse. Today when I woke up I felt like crap. I felt like crap all day. I went to get another massage and it definitely helped. I hate missing my regular massages because this is what happens. Hopefully I can keep a regular schedule from now on. Anyhow, it was around 3 when I finally peeled myself up from my bed to go for the massage so I haven't done anything and my apartment is a wreck. I hope I get a boost of energy next week so I can clean up and cook. I will try to get to the grocery store tomorrow. I am thinking of preparing stu...

I stumbled upon this post today and it struck a nerve. Here I was thinking that I was the crappy friend and turns out that I have just been trying to protect myself from my army of crappy friends . Some of these you have witnessed right here on this very blog. Now, the tricky part is how will I find good friends? I seem to attract crappy friends/boyfriends repeatedly. What is a crappy friend? Try this checklist: Do you  feel bad or anxious  after you spend time with them? Are you more often than not,  arguing with them ? Do they  put you down  in a way that is destructive and not constructive? Do they try to  limit your opportunities ? Do they try to  isolate you from your friends ? Do they  resent your successes  in any way – or try to compete with your successes? Do they  not listen to you  as much as you listen to them? Do they  add drama to your life  instead of remove drama? And what is drama? It took me a...

There is a concept of being a bucket filler based on the book by Tom Rath called How Full is Your Bucket? I realized that my bucket is pretty empty. Why? Because no one fills it. On top of that, as part of my job I am constantly filling everyone else's bucket while they dip into mine. Last year, I would make it point to dole out compliments throughout the day. Sincere compliments. I also make sure to show my appreciation to others when they have done something...even if it was a small act of kindness. Yet, my bucket drains when people say negative things about me, no matter how supportive I am of them. The concept of being a bucket filler is that everyone has an imaginary bucket over their head. When someone does or says something kind it fills your bucket. When someone is mean or hurtful it empties your bucket. When you are kind your bucket should fill up...yet I think there is a huge hole in my bucket because no matter how kind I am my bucket continues to leak. I think my buc...

Today is one of those Sundays where I have to spend the entire day trying to get  my mind prepped for the week ahead. Again, I don't hate what I do. I just don't like the environment. Or maybe I'm just tired of it. I spent all weekend fantasizing about running away. Just walking away from it all. I will spend 2017 getting my life to a place where if that is what I need to do in order to live in joy then I will. I read my goals and plans from December of last year in the archives. I have some of the same hopes and dreams - some of which I have accomplished. Others I am still working on achieving. I know I don't want to struggle but I don't want to be so trapped by a life that is eating me up from the inside out. Plans for the day: Get my mind right...listen to music, go work out, color in my gratitude coloring book, meditate, write Get out of the house: get a cup of coffee at a cafe, go for a walk Clean my apartment/do laundry, prepare for the week ahead.  Pl...

While I have had one foot in the land of funky mood and another in the land of let's just get through this the holidays have fallen upon us. The lights and energy of the season are undeniable. I still haven't put up my decorations, but seeing trees and displays has lifted my spirits a bit. I am more determined than ever to make major life changes in 2017. I need to be happier. I need to feel freer. I know I have a lot to offer the world and being suppressed is killing me slowly. Go where you are celebrated, not simply tolerated. I want to travel. I need to have options in my life. I need to be around a wide range of people and not just the same closed mindset group of people who are content to live life in a bubble. I need to be around people who spark my interest and motivate me. I get so excited when I can express my creativity. In my current environment is is squelched. I hate being some place where mediocre is the flavor of the day. Dream big, mofos! Let's do some lif...