Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

I know I have been threatening to do it for a while, but I have finally embarked on my journey to health and wellness. I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I also feel like the weight is the main issue that is holding me back from fulfilling my dreams at this point. Every week there is a different ailment and I finally connected the dots and realized that I need to get back on that health train. Last weekend I worked out 3 days and intended to do it again this weekend, but I was so exhausted by Friday that I have just been home sleeping and recharging for the week ahead. I have been eating HORRIBLY lately. Stress eating and just not taking care of myself. On Friday my feet were so swollen they looked like sausages. They still haven't completely returned to normal. Yesterday I slept all day and today I woke up and have been planning for the week ahead. That includes planning my meals. I already started working on meal planning last week, but this week I will do it. I am al...

It seems that I posted about the book by Susan Cain here before but I can't find the post. Quiet is a book by, for, and about introverts. It has really helped me understand why I approach the world the way that I do. Living in a world run by extroverts who won't shut up is exhausting. The daily meetings,  sometimes 2 or 3 in a day in addition to conferences,  trainings,  and other interactive interactions forced upon me drains me. Then when I should be recuperating I have to work on my time off to meet deadlines that are too short to meet. This weekend I couldn't function.  All I did was get my hair done, buy a few groceries,  do a bit of laundry, and get a massage.  No work was done.  No cleaning nor planning.  Why? Because I was so tense I was literally in pain. I wanted the massage yesterday so I could function today but getting my hair done took longer than expected. So I went this morning and it was a spiritual experience. So much came up in...

To start dating. I want to meet someone amazing!

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 My theme song. The lyrics are perfect. Grammatically incorrect, but perfectly imperfect.

When I hear this song I close my eyes and feel myself being two stepped by someone with strong arms. I feel so loved and and beautiful. I am happy and entirely in that moment. This is what good music is about.

Where has the time gone? What have I done other than sleep?  I saw a show, I went to my exhibit, but other than that I cannot for the life of me remember what I have done during my vacation. And the thing about it is that I wouldn't mind having more time to do whatever . I hate feeling rushed, pressed for time, and under pressure constantly. Having my own time to do what I want to do is more my style. I know people who can't stand to stay still. Who constantly have to do something...have a project going, redecorating, staying busy. I don't need it. I do what absolutely needs to be done - laundry, cleaning, groceries, paying bills, etc. The rest is up in the air. Maybe I will be blessed with the opportunity to work a flexible schedule while making a livable wage n 2014.