Abandoned

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Hola! I have been debating myself as to whether I should retire this blog or not. I'm never sure if it is just an online journal at this point or if I have an audience to write for as well.

In any event out of curiosity I decided to see when I started this blog. It has significance for a reason that I won't delve into right now. Coincidentally it was 15 years ago almost to the day that I shut down my previous blog and started this one. Not sure if I ever shared the story of why I felt I needed to do that. It actually would make a good blog. Note to self.

There is so much going on in the world right now and I want to document it. I have always been able to get raw and gritty in this space where I remain anonymous although I'm sure a number of long time readers know me personally by now. But if you are still reading then you don't judge me too harshly and I appreciate that.  Hell you even tolerate the numerous typos because you know this is my space to basically brain dump...a stream of consciousness.

I have met (online and in person) so many phenomenal people through the internet. In real life I am shy and considered a bit standoffish. As you know by now I am also brutally honest. This isn't a great combination for making and maintaining friends.

Over the years I have been learning more about myself and how to navigate the world. This time in self-isolation has been amazing for me. I have rediscovered parts of me that I thought were lost. Soooo let's see what happens. If you are still out there say hi to me in the comments.

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