Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

Good Morning, I am starting fresh morning and feeling really good about it. I have seen God work in my life and those around me and I am encouraged!  I am in a good place right now. I thank God with all of my heart and spirit for the blessings that have been bestowed upon me. I am living a blessed life! I am listening to The Walls group and they also touch my spirit with their encouraging music. I truly in a good place right now. God is good....all the time. Even when I am at my lowest and feeling negative about everything God is still behind the scenes working it all out on my behalf. Thank you God for loving me and keeping me in your fold. Love Always, -Me For the first time See the world for the first time today, fresh and new and full of hope. Marvel at the power of your own living spirit, as if you’ve never encountered it before. Open yourself to the miracle that is your own existence in this moment. Let the truth that springs from every reality sink warmly i...

While it is a beautiful sunny day today and I am in a positive and productive mood, I know that this message will be needed once I get into the full swing of things. So I am saving this one for a rainy day when I will need the motivation and encouragement. Saturday, August 8, 2015 Peacefully determined Trying harder and harder won’t make you any more effective. Step back, take a breath, remember who you are, and allow good things to come through your efforts. Pushing and shoving, even if it’s against your own fecklessness, is not the way to make progress. Let go of the worry and anxiety, and let yourself be your best. The world continues to spin, the sun will rise again, and new possibilities are being born in every moment. Accept the unique value of where you are, and allow yourself to do something wonderful with it. Raise your expectations, and don’t lose faith if those expectations are not met immediately. Choose to be inspired by the challenges, and you’ll position yo...

Just writing to say that I'm still here. Today I piddled around the house for most of the morning then headed out to meet someone for a late lunch. I then ran a few errands. I am preparing for my new job and trying to get myself pre-organized so when I walk in I am ready to hit the ground running. I met my new assistant yesterday for coffee and I like him but he has had a challenging time and is in a place where he is ready to move on. I am hoping he stays and we can have a great working relationship. Tomorrow my plan is to deep condition my hair, deep clean my apartment, and organize my items that I will moving into my new work space. I think I will simultaneously organize my space here at home and finally get rid of a few things. I have old papers that need to be shredded but I think I got rid of my shredder when I moved so there's that. There is a container in the lobby of my building that accepts papers for shredding but I would only use that for old bills not sensitive...

Last night I had a dream that I met the one. He wasn't anything that I would have expected. He was a really cute, really together white guy. Now, I have never dated outside of my race. I have had guys of other races like me when I was in college, but I never really dated anyone was other than full black. I have not even dated anyone biracial. So, maybe that is the problem. Maybe I have been looking in the wrong place for the love of my life. Maybe he really is out there waiting for me. Maybe.

Sometimes when our spirit tells us it is time to move on we stay. I have found over and over again that this serves no purpose. I am learning that when my spirit tells me that my time in a place or space is expired that I need to get my butt into gear to move on out. I look forward to all of the wonderful blessing that are ahead of me.

I have been studying the impact of work place abuse and how it can be defined as a type of PTSD once you leave the abusive environment. I came across the work of Chauncey Hare who shared different scenarios including the one below of Martha. I think it is sad that the work place bullies and abusers are allowed to continue to hurt people and there is nothing that can be done to stop them. Why aren't these people being sent to counseling to heal them of their hurts that they are projecting on others?  I never want to be in a position of authority. I simply want to be seen as a leader. A firm but fair leader. It seems from what I see on here that it is simply a matter of finding a environment that is safe. Sadly I have found that even if you do find a work environment that is safe where you are not being bullied or scapegoated the leadership shifts and you sadly wind up with another idiot who compensates their insecurities by abusing you. I have lots of healing to do before I start my...

Today I have spent the entire day fighting myself. Beating myself up and calling myself stupid. Maybe if I allow myself one day to do it then I can get it out of my system and put these past two years of negativity and abuse behind me. I am beginning to believe that you can have post traumatic stress after leaving an abusive job as well. I am certainly jaded. I want to be fresh, trusting, and fearless like I was two years ago. As I was looking at this page I noticed my inspirational messages over on the right side of the page. Both of them were exactly what I needed to hear in this moment. The Ralph Marston post is below this one. It really hit the nail on the head. I need to release this situation after this and simply move on. The Daily Word read: Faith I HAVE FAITH IN THE POWER OF MY THOUGHTS. Jesus used the metaphor of planting seeds to explain the power of our thoughts. He taught us to pay attention to the seeds we plant. I examine the seeds I nurture. Do I...