Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

Finally every room in my apartment is clean at the same time. It feels great! I actually have more energy and my mind is clear. I still have to clean out closets and do various and sundry tasks but I managed to do a nice deep, thorough cleaning from top to bottom. My house is in order. My house smells wonderful!  Now I just need a sunflower to make it complete. I have been stressing over not having internet in the house. How late am I to realize that I can use my mobile to access the internet on my lap top.  Clarity! Off to negotiate some things.

Last few weeks of vacations and emails are starting to pour in about work related stuff. Not ready. We still have to hire a new assistant. I've come to realize I don't want someone with an impressive resume. I'd rather have someone who is dedicated and a good person.  I am decided that I am definitely moving next year. Somewhere - anywhere - south of here. I've had enough. And how are you?

I feel my heart, face, and outlook softening. It is the combination of enough sleep, healthier eating habits, lots of sun, and the time to do what I love.  I want to be able to maintain this feeling through the fall and winter, but about 6 weeks into the winter I begin to emotionally hibernate. I really need to find a job that allows me to indulge in my joys more often and/or need to move to a state where I can get more sun, more often. Please let the economy improve so I can move forward. I won't complain because I am blessed to have a job and to have this time off, but it will be hard to get back to business when I know that something else brings joy to my heart and peace to my spirit. Let me remain open and pliable to all new possibilities and opportunities.

People often wonder why I don’t attend more social events in Harlem. Primary reason is that New Yorkers are notorious for sizing you up within the first 3 seconds of meeting you. If they determine you aren’t on their level they can be aloof and downright rude. I know who I am and don’t need the approval of people who think that they are more than they are. We all have unique qualities that make us God’s children. If you can’t take the time to find that out then that is your issue, not mine. Everyone in New York is so self-important, but all you do is build a community of pretentious and contrived interactions. The name dropping gets old fast!

We have had temps 90 degrees and above just about every day this month. I haven't been sleeping for about as long. I stay up until the sun rises. Then I sleep through until I get too hot and have to find someplace cool. Today temps are expected to be close to 100 degrees - hot & humid. I have no contingency plan. Oh boy!