Blessings, affirmations, grace, and reflection

After feeling overlooked and taken for granted for months, I felt it was time to walk away. I couldn't forsee another year of working too many hours and never feeling like what I did was good enough. Today, I get a voice mail from H.R. telling me they want to have a meeting to discuss what options are available to me specifically. Should I even bother going through the motions? I have no intention of going back. I put in my time and now I am ready to move forward.

I am in such a peaceful state today. I resigned from my job yesterday....I did it with confidence in myself and my skills and without any anxiety whatsoever. I did my job and I did it well. It helped me realize that I can longer sacrifice my happiness for others. Today, I received an email from someone I had been working with on a personal project that had been put on hold as well as another associate I've been working with on getting my pet projects off the ground. Moving forward. It feels good. It feels right. It finally feels like it is time. I am typing this with smile on my face and in my heart. I am at peace.

That's what's up! I am in LOVE with this couple. Look at them...the intensity. The camaraderie . No matter what goes on behind closed doors, they are the epitome of what Black Love is about. Michelle, is that sister that will hold it down.

What Shampoo brand do you use? Creme of Nature What Conditioner do you use? Right now some Wella-type deep conditioner in a jar. Trying to find the kind used by the Dominicans Do you use a flat-iron daily? Nope What styling products do you use? Lock and Curl gel, Parnevu leave in conditioner and some shea butter hair grease. If I had access to CD I would be using her oils, hair milk and hair creme. Do you prefer your hair to be up or down? On the weekends free as can be. During the week I pull it back tight. Is your hair long or short? Relatively long. It hasn't been blown out in a while. I am considering cutting it all off though. Salivating over Rihanna's short hair cut that I used to rock yeeeeaaarssss ago. Do you dye your hair? 'Bout to because I can't pluck out those grays fast enough. Do you use the same color, or do you experiment with other colors all the time? N/A Do you wear make-up? I'll usually slap on some mascara and lip gloss. Just bought som...

Maybe we should make it official...seems I only get on here to blog about once a month. So it must be about that time of the month. Lately I've been thinking about what is relevant and irrelevant. I tend to think that I am pretty irrelevant right now. When I ponder the past it seems like lifetimes ago. Little pockets of events...high school, college, grad school, New York and now this new phase. Did I mention that in a few weeks I will be 39 and I have the gray hairs to prove it! I haven't dated since SupaStar which leads me to believe that I am no longer relevant. As an only child who has grown into a single woman (never married with no kids) I often wonder what is relevant? Would I still feel this way if I'd instead set my sights on getting married and having a family rather than trying to be successful in a career? What is your definition of success?

blogger is up to it's old tricks. Just typed a whole heartfelt post and it went poof with the press of the publish button. Oh well. 'Til next time.

My father passed away and I didn't cry 'Cause my anger wouldn't let me feel for stranger R.I.P. Walter - 3/29/08